So I've been fiddling around with the background etc. on this page for at least an hour. Do I consider that a productive morning by my new standards?
This is my first Monday morning of my first week off from work. My feelings fluctuate several times a day. I go from sad, to perky, to depressed, to embarrassed, to giddy and on and on. I guess what it equates to is...it's nice to not be at work but this isn't the way I would have chosen to get here. I honestly expected to work there forever and I sometimes can't believe it's over. SO weird!
It's entirely possible I won't know how to handle all of this free time. When I think of it, I now have an extra 12 to 14 hours a day (including driving time) I imagine I'll clean out closets, and rearrange for awhile..work out in the yard..fiddle.. It's hard to know what way to go because you know me, I always like to have a plan at LEAST six months (or years if I'm honest) into the future. I think God is trying to teach me the one day at a time thing. Wow, yesterday's message was on not worrying about tomorrow. How very timely. It's not that I'm "worried" by my definition...but I guess "worry" could also encompass over planning and focusing on...
I did sign up for the women's Tuesday morning bible study. It starts in a couple of weeks I think. And I talked to one of the pastor's about volunteering. He took my name and number...I'm not sure when or if I'll hear anything.
You know, I always thought this "identity crisis" thing about work was unique to men. I'm starting to think it might be for me as well. Did I truly define myself by my work? I imagine a piece of me was anyway. I just can't get it out of my head....30 years.
I think having spent most of my life at "home" is why I am always looking around at everyone else and thinking they have done so much more than I have with my life. 30 years is a long long time Danae. I can imagine why you are going from one emotion to the next. And I can identify in my own way as my life has changed sooo much now that Mel (my last one) married and moved out and I wasn't quite sure what I was suppose to do now. You might be surprised how easy it is to fill your day. I am NEVER bored really, have now idea what I am really on, and thus my blog of the other day. But I think you all may have been right....at the end of the day I want to be remebered by all the significant people in my life (which takes time and involvement) and not by rather or not my house and pics were organized and well decorated. Though I will admit, my grandkids (which you haven't started with yet) fill my days alot....it's nice you can join the women's group whenever you like. That's how it should be...you know Dave....it's once a year, and if you missed it you are out...I've thought about what about having a once a week family womens bible study....we could trade around going to each others house and serve lunch etc.....just a thought.....I LOVE the background
ReplyDeleteActually, it just happens to be the new enrollment for spring (God's perfect timing again I'm sure) And something once a week w/family sounds AMAZING!!
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