I don't mean to sound frantic, but the possibility is actually very high. I've figured out that the verdict will be in next week. If I'm lucky (meaning if my boss keeps his word) I should know by Wednesday and they're doing the actual laying off on Friday. Thirty years. Literally almost to the day. It was 30 years on January 22nd.
The thing that amazes me is that I'm not wild with worry. Though I know you all know what it means to truly trust God, sometimes when you see it playing out in your life you still cannot believe that you really believe it as much as you do. In reading these blogs so far, another blessing in my life that I don't think about quite as much as I should is that so many of my closest family members are Christian. Sadly, sometimes I think I don't have many Christian friends when here you all are! I think that it's like everything else with this family, we open up and express ourselves so much better in writing. A little dysfunctional I admit, but at least we have somewhere where we can really talk and be like normal people!
I wonder if we're all just that insecure? That we don't think anyone would truly believe that we mean what we're saying when we talk about our relationship with God? That we're sounding a little too pat or holy? The thing is, when I listen to all of you here, I know the relationship is real. Maybe if we spend enough time talking online, we'll someday be able to migrate over to live conversations. Love you all!
There is nothing better when you can settle in and just "know" God is in control. And just because you might sometimes worry somewhat doesn't mean you don't know He is in charge I've learned. He leaves us room to be our human selves, and yet when we can sense in our spirits He is in control, we know peace. Do you know what I mean?? By the way, these blogs are going to be wonderful I think. I was soooo perky when I got and realized both you and Di had written. I'm really hoping to get everyone going on here....Your pics are cute by the way. Deb
ReplyDeleteI tried to post a comment on here yesterday and it wouldn't let me. The same thing happened this am when I was on Jimmy's (was that darling???) So I called Joe and he said maybe someone else was on at the same time and to try again and sure enough it worked! (Just another tip for future reference.) OK, back to my comment from yesterday.......My best friends in the whole world are my mother and my sisters and how wonderful is it that we are all Christians, too!!!!
ReplyDeletei wish there was a way to comment on peoples profiles because i almost peeled over lauging when i saw u had ur occupation as "harworking"... M.E. ( im attempting to bring that back since "settle down" is used waaaay too much around here...i litterally have my boss saying it now. its quite scary.) anyways, dont worry about ur job mamma, if u get fired that just means u get to spend all ur time with me! wahoo! just think we could spend all our days at the mall or T.J. blowing all the money we dont have!!! could be fun...love u. <3
ReplyDeleteEveryone is getting laid off these days. The funny thing is, when you look at these things from a distance they seem like much bigger problems than they really are. Think back to ten or fifteen or twenty years ago and think about all the million things you worried about at your job that you don't even remember anymore. If you get laid off, you'll find something else and in time you'll look back and see the whole thing as a relatively minor hiccup in your life. The short term almost always looks alot scarier than it really turns out to be.
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